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Jackalope Thing

Do I really want to get in touch with that old friend?

Volunteer to moderate that group?

Foster those abandoned javelina babies?


Is this a great morning to set out on a spontaneous multistate road trip?

 

Can I please take a pry bar to the furniture

break it down to fit in the fire pit

and repaint the front room?

I’m thinking bright yellow 

right now

 

Is today the day to become

the world’s foremost collector of jackalopes

and jackalope-related paraphernalia?

 

Or am I just inviting chaos?


Or after decades of uphill and downhill spirals

of chaos

of failure

is it safer to sit on my hands?

 

Except that jackalope thing

I’m totally doing that



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